LEAVING...

I'm leaving :) 

I'm leaving my hometown.

I'm leaving the place I familiar with.

I thought leaving my home, making new friends & working part time jobs were easy. I went to my university and got my enrolment stuff done and I got my accommodation in a new place. I thought it was gonna be fun and exciting to be living in a different environment...

I remember last week my mom and I were looking for accommodation and we went to check out the residence and stuff. At that moment, I realise ... it wasn't easy at all. It (accommodation fee) costs way too high, the courses I'm gonna take costs a lot too... I don't feel like a burden to my mom but I feel that I'm asking too much from my mother... She worked so hard for me and after I got graduated, I take up courses, programs and activities which makes her pay for me. Shouldn't I be paying my own bills and stuff..? Although I'm too young to work legally, parents have to raise us .. ya I know that... That's just a thought of mine anyways...

I know we have to look forward and never look back and let the past hold us, at some point ... I just couldn't help myself. Currently I'm working for my mom before I leave for further studies in other places, I wanna earn some pocket money so I don't have to take it granted from my mom... I know a lot of people say and tell other people that you're gonna miss something or someone until you lose them, oh well nobody will actually know how that sentence make them feel unless they experience it. I hope I will not disappoint my mom and family ... I thought life after high school would be less stress-free and stuff but I guess I got it wrong ... It's even stressful than ever before that I have to make sure I got good results or even just to pass the exam , assignments, presentation and doing other stuff. ( so my mom don't have to worry for paying extra on my program that I'm taking )

I thought I was taking March intake so that I can spend some more time with my family and friends here before leaving ? But things never goes the way as planned... that's life right ? I have to learn getting use to this then .. 💬 💭 Oh well, it's overall an emotional post today... But that's how I have been feeling after my Taiwan trip :@ I hope I'll soon get used to the environment there and meet new friends and think positively there :)

= Be kind to one another 💛 💜 💘